A few months ago, I became aware of an unfocused energy around me and in my mind that was not ME as far as I could tell.
I was doing a visualization of a dome house I wanted (in accordance to some techniques I was studying to manifest it in my life)and I wrote a little story describing this dome house, describing it in great detail.
Surprisingly, it included an unknown male entity who I thought was a Significant Other. I never clearly saw his face. We had an excellent, comfortable relationship - very mellow and relaxed. I then, had a dream of this man and I knew he had brown hair and very pale skin - still his face wouldn't come into focus. As the days went by I tentatively matched what I knew about this mysterious man against all the men I knew and dealt with in my daily life. No satisfactory matches.
About the same time, I ordered online a Celtic Meditation Music CD beautifully done by Aine Minogue, and I have listened to it constantly, especially when I drive back and forth to work about 19 miles. Some music affects me so strongly that I feel pierced through my soul. I did some research on the internet about this feeling and I am not alone. I am not sure about my intensity but I have found that St. Teresa of Avila wrote about it in her autobiography and a sculpture was done by Gian Lorenzo Bernini to commemorate it. She describes herself as being pierced several times in the heart by an angel of God.
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For some reason, I always thought that this indulgence in music was melodramatic and unproductive and I always tried to reject it and live (what I thought) a more traditional acceptable life. Since these visions, I've followed where the music led.
This mysterious energy around me coalesced into what could only describe as my soul's connection to God, an angel and due to Irish music I've been listening to, an Irish angel. No other music helped me to recognize this energy. My Irish angel has helped me tremendously to accept what's going on with me right now. I needed desperately to feel more secure enough to act on my dreams and follow God's purpose for me, no matter where I go, do, see.
Then I received through One Spirit, a book club I'm subscribing to, some information about a book about Anam Cara, Friend of the Soul. I knew immediately what my Irish angel was, my soul friend, Anam Cara. I've done some research on Anam Cara and absorbed the information and realized I was incredibly thirsty for this knowledge. I am humbled that God would send this precious entity to me and I am grateful that I now have the wisdom to accept him. I used to believe I was alone and I am not.
I copied this from another site to explain a little more about Anam Cara, who could be a real person or angel (from my perspective , "the mind makes it real"): " He listened to my story - all of it. He helped to relate my life's jig saw pieces to a larger picture. If my self image was low, he would build it up; if my ego was high and mighty he would bring this to my notice; if my blocked emotions hindered my moving forward with the Holy Spirit, he would explore memories or dreams until there was release. Thus, in a context of soul friendship, the Bible's Messianic mandate was again being taken seriously: The low places in my life were raised up, the high places were made low, and imprisoned places were released (Isaiah 40:4; 61:1) " quote from http://www.aidantrust.org/html/soulfriend.html.
